I am not sure why it is that when you have no place to go you have little desire to get dressed. Or maybe that is just me. It seems I was tiring of deciding what to wear every day – same pants and shirts week after week, month after month. I longed to wear my jeans again, to wear a t-shirt or some funky socks. I did just find some knee high – just over the knee – boots. Boom, then I have no job and a lack of desire to get dressed. I am not sure if it is slight depression, laziness (where I am leaning), or just a lack of motivation – again pointing to laziness.
I am thinking I should not worry about where I am going and just dress for me. Once I get passed the “it seems awfully silly to get all dressed up to go nowhere” phase of my daily issues then I will do just that. Why should society, or my perception of such, dictate how or why I should dress. I did get out of my pj’s today. Of course I’m in workout pants, but that is because I NEED to workout. It has been a week and I am already feeling the slow creeping up of all that weight I fought so hard to rid myself. Not to mention I have no big girl clothes to squeeze into if I do start to gain weight. Talk about your incentive!
Tomorrow I start the workout routine – yoga & abs. I will work with the weights (dumbbells) and on the stepper the following day. No sense in overdoing it. I guess this makes little sense to anyone who does not know me, but I worked for a not-for-profit heath and fitness organization and worked out quite regularly this past year. I already miss the classes and the people, but am not ready to walk back in the building. So, I need to be self-motivating. Again we are back to the “laziness” thing. It is definitely a theme. Working on changing that.
